5ft x 4ft Acrylic on Gallery Wrapped Cotton Canvas
One night, in 2021, I was completely overcome by my emotions. You see, I’ve ALWAYS felt EVERYTHING to its totality — the ecstasy of life as well as the utter brutality of it. On that night, however, I had found myself playing an all too familiar hell of a loop; I’m broken, I’m not enough, I might as well exit stage left.
I was purely frustrated and upmost enraged that these thoughts were pounding against the walls of my brain again, thinking to myself, “how on earth am I back here again?! I thought I healed this, why is this still happening to me? I thought I was powerful enough to break this, I must not be good enough.”
But by the grace of the Universal Self, by the divine beating of my own heart, I heard a voice that echoed within the infinite chambers of my core saying, “CREATE.”
Eyes like waterfalls, I grabbed the biggest canvas I had in stock at the house and simply began to unlock and unwind the heartbreaks of my life, past and present, bit by bit.
This piece the loss of a best friendship, the death of my uncle, the absolute trauma that occurred within my family after we found out horrific news about a sexual assault, the ripping apart of my burning man family because of this, many arguments with my lover that was triggered by my past wounding, and every little ounce of anger and sadness that coursed through my veins since childhood.
It also contains moments of pure awakening, ecstatic bliss, feeling like a powerful divine human being, the feeling of accomplishment with our burning man builds, the utter joy that I have been able to heal my nervous system throughout these years, and the perfection of falling back in love with a new community and friendships that I could’ve never imagined possible.
More than anything, however, this piece is a declaration of Love. It is a monument to the force that weaves all human experience together.
I began this piece when I was 23 years old, and it would take me 3.5 years to complete. I had tastes of divinity but could not hold it within my bones. The doubt that lived inside of me was parasitic to my sacred power. I was asked from a voice deep within to fully integrate the pain, suffering, beauty, and wonder of my human existence, as well as the human experience.
This piece is a very raw and real representation of my life story, specifically from 2021-2024. The loops that I had to dive so deep within to break the ancestral chains of shame that suffocated the fire that roared in my chest and dried the ocean that is my sacral sight, seemed infinite.
But with each breaking of my heart a deep and visceral alchemy occurred. Today as I write this, it all just feels like Love in my body. A vision so profound sweeps my entire nervous system and codes a new consciousness that every layer of my cell knows to be pure Love.
5ft x 4ft Acrylic on Gallery Wrapped Cotton Canvas
One night, in 2021, I was completely overcome by my emotions. You see, I’ve ALWAYS felt EVERYTHING to its totality — the ecstasy of life as well as the utter brutality of it. On that night, however, I had found myself playing an all too familiar hell of a loop; I’m broken, I’m not enough, I might as well exit stage left.
I was purely frustrated and upmost enraged that these thoughts were pounding against the walls of my brain again, thinking to myself, “how on earth am I back here again?! I thought I healed this, why is this still happening to me? I thought I was powerful enough to break this, I must not be good enough.”
But by the grace of the Universal Self, by the divine beating of my own heart, I heard a voice that echoed within the infinite chambers of my core saying, “CREATE.”
Eyes like waterfalls, I grabbed the biggest canvas I had in stock at the house and simply began to unlock and unwind the heartbreaks of my life, past and present, bit by bit.
This piece the loss of a best friendship, the death of my uncle, the absolute trauma that occurred within my family after we found out horrific news about a sexual assault, the ripping apart of my burning man family because of this, many arguments with my lover that was triggered by my past wounding, and every little ounce of anger and sadness that coursed through my veins since childhood.
It also contains moments of pure awakening, ecstatic bliss, feeling like a powerful divine human being, the feeling of accomplishment with our burning man builds, the utter joy that I have been able to heal my nervous system throughout these years, and the perfection of falling back in love with a new community and friendships that I could’ve never imagined possible.
More than anything, however, this piece is a declaration of Love. It is a monument to the force that weaves all human experience together.
I began this piece when I was 23 years old, and it would take me 3.5 years to complete. I had tastes of divinity but could not hold it within my bones. The doubt that lived inside of me was parasitic to my sacred power. I was asked from a voice deep within to fully integrate the pain, suffering, beauty, and wonder of my human existence, as well as the human experience.
This piece is a very raw and real representation of my life story, specifically from 2021-2024. The loops that I had to dive so deep within to break the ancestral chains of shame that suffocated the fire that roared in my chest and dried the ocean that is my sacral sight, seemed infinite.
But with each breaking of my heart a deep and visceral alchemy occurred. Today as I write this, it all just feels like Love in my body. A vision so profound sweeps my entire nervous system and codes a new consciousness that every layer of my cell knows to be pure Love.
